Back to Life?

I do not believe in fate that falls on men however they act; but I do believe in fate that falls on them unless they act.

Anon

It has been a long time since I last recorded my thoughts, but my head has been clamouring with so much, I have had no time to really thing things through. I have decided if I do not now, I will never get my thoughts in order.

Firstly, I am happy to say, I am back alive, but that is about where the happiness stops at the moment.

As I last left you, I had just landed on the Isle of Mann, Rhiannons father. Of course, at this time, I did not know that and approached a house in the distance, only to be confronted by an old woman - Mona - who thought me some kind of bandit. After failed negotiations, I forced her to look into my soul, and see me for who I truly am. She was soon calmed, just in time for the others to arrive.

Whilst we discovered Mona was Rhiannons stepmother, we were invited into the house, the old woman still wary of me after what I had shown her, and Rupper set to fixing up Tal. I was jumpy and feeling paranoid. Whilst I did eat the soup Mona offered, I felt something dark stirring in the air above us, and I was correct. Pepper and Cal soon called out that wolves had come to attack the horses on the farm, and I was firing at them before anybody else could truly react. Unfortunately, the gun did little, so I flew outside, towards the wolves with a rope made by Kellys spider.

It was useless, I had allowed myself to forget we were now incorporeal. I soon recovered from that shock, and flew towards the barn to get a rope. It was second nature to me, but later I discovered the others were surprised by the sight.

Coming back, I found that the others had already dispatched of the wolves, and Tal had reopened her wounds in the act.

We set back to fixing ourselves up again, whilst I stood on watch for further attacks. Soon we had another newcomer, but it turned out to be Manannan Mac Lir. Rhiannons father (or adoptive father? I must admit it is unclear.)

Mann promised to bring us back to life in exchange for a quest - something I soon agreed to, along with the others. The quest was a rescue of one of the horses, which went bad fast. We were attacked by a fomorian hag, who cursed me for the trouble of helping stop her. I curse that was luckily lifted by Wuyi.

More importantly, we were chased by Cerberus, and when we went to retrieve the hags corpse, he began to chase us all. I did my best to distract him, but eventually he was stopped by one of the inhabitants of the island with a milkbottle he was blowing. Simply astounding.

As said, we returned to Mac, who then after a fight between Rhia and Tal -these are growing increasingly common- turned us into horses for the day, a day which Tal and I spent running through the fields, and letting our wild instincts over take us.

When we came to, we asked fate some questions, mostly pertaining to Tal's past and I vowed I would find her true father to punish him for what he had done to her sister and herself. This mood for justice must have stuck in my mind, because it's the only way I can explain later actions.

We got back and Wuyi cured me of the affliction which had been affecting me during my encounters with Tal, and I was so overcome, that I soon tore off again with Tal, whilst the others got down to important work. We got back, and Tal went to the barn to talk things through with Rhia and Wu. I decided she did not need me at her back for this, as my presence can be distracting at the best of times in such talks.

I meant to ask her what had happened when she finally got into the feast which Kathy had prepared for us, but, of course, I was distracted. I began to smell human faeces coming from the larder and soon found Mona's destroyed body. My eyes went red. Kathy had killed her - I knew this. I took Kathy outside, the only thing in my head to punish her, to make up for my mistakes.

Taking out the crescent moon blade - something i'd not paid much attention to before now, it being so different in design from everything else - I ordered her to bend over a trunk whilst I drew the blade up, but Rhia demanded I do not kill her. And I agreed. She was, after all, the family of the injured. I could not stand there and watch what was happening, so like a child I went behind the house and had a tantrum.

Tal found me, and at first I refused to talk. I did not want her to see me like this, but I soon calmed down and walked to the others. Mann had left, and demanded we do the same, but to leave Kathy behind. I complied, and we left, I myself apologising to Rupper for losing control. He seems to be the only one to have kept his head.

We were picked up by a boat, by lesser god of the Loa, who offered us information. We concurred and moved on.

There is still much I need to say, still much I need to think about, but right now, my mind is too clouded with worries.

I am worried for Tal and myself. We seem unable to talk things through - we are supposed to be man and wife, but still our emotions are closed.

I am worried about the group, we fight and argue. Rhia in particular - she has just lost her family, I feel we should be a support to her, but i'm not sure how to do that for her.

I can only dream that the future is brighter.